Starting Over

Okay I'm going to have to face it that I've totally given up since my last post about a month ago. I haven't really done any of my goals/habits - except maybe I've brushed my teeth a couple of times at night. When I gave up my writing goal - I gave up on all. I tried to just move onto the next goal, but I wasn't trying very hard. So I've been coasting the past couple of weeks, and not falling all the way back into the way it was before, but almost.

I'm insured through Blue Cross (of Minnesota for some reason - probably because that's where SuperValu comes from) and they have a Wellness program. I get a discount each week if I participate in the probgram and so I do. Well, I got an introductory call today and I talked about how I'd had some goals up until the beginning of March etc. So I decided (with some help from the Wellness coach) to begin again on my goals, and at least with relation to the Wellness program, to focus on weight loss. So I need some way to keep up the pressure on these weight goals even if a goal in another area slips.

I think that I'll divide my goals in four areas. In Luke 2:52 it is talking about Jesus adolescence between the time when he was twelve and talked with the doctors in the temple and by the time that he was thirty-three and started his ministry.

"And Jesus increased in Wisdom and Stature, and in Favor with God and man." or you could split the last and in "Favor with God" and "Favor with Man". So there are the four areas Wisdom = Mental, Stature = Physical, Favor with God = Spiritual, and Favor with Man = Social.

So for now I'll get those physical goals that I had before, up and running again and then I'll add 1 goal from each area after 20 days. So for the next 20 days it'll be back to the basics. Brush at night, no candy, no pop, no picking + I will restart writing 30 minutes each day. That will be my Mental goal that I'll start today as well. I'm going to do this, because I wish to be in a writing class/conference this summer and I need to get into the habit of writing each day as soon as I can.

Another reason that I'm starting over, is because I want to feel better. I feel like I'm under a lot of pressure right now. I've been floating a loan of several hundred dollars since December, and I still need to finish my business files from 2008 to do my 2008 taxes, so that I can then do my 2009 business & taxes. Then I'll get back a bunch of money, but there seems to be so much that I need to do. It's pretty overwhelming sometimes. I try to break it up into parts...like okay today I'll do this folder of stuff etc.

I also need that money to get back up on the correct level of medication that I need to be taking. At the beginning of the year, I had to reach my deductible again. So I cut way down on the meds I was taking, and stretch out others, and took older ones that I had from earlier in the year.

okay - enough for now. walt